PTSD And That Nagging 1/10th

PTSD And That Nagging 1/10^th

  I have been 99.99% sure about things I’ve been 100% wrong about, much to my detriment. That 1/10^th has caused me numerous problems, I just can’t trust anything or anyone the way they feel they should be trusted and it hurts them and it hurts me.


Though perhaps statistically insignificant, it can devastate a persons life. Relationships fail, family ties weaken and even going to a therapist can be difficult. Trust is a major issue and I can get 99.99% sure about something, but I have to ramp up to it. So going to a new therapist it may take me 6 months or more to get to the 99.99%, which just really hurts me. I would like to be different, but now it’s just sort of like having green eyes, wish they were blue, but no amount of wishing, pills, therapy, or whatever is going to make them blue. So 99.99% is about the best I can do and for many relationships that’s just not enough.

Operating My IPod After Taking My Anxiety Meds

Background: So last night sleep was a bit fleeting and had a bit of the heebie-jeebies all night, don't know why and frankly I don't really care at this particular point in time.

So after giving up on sleep after several hours, I decided anxiety medication was required which I took as prescribed. I put my headset's on and started blasting "Magic Carpet Ride". 

So I am walking around and the anxiety is lifting and the song is playing and I think boy this song is longer than I remember and I continue on to my computer. I check some emails and I am noticing that I am anxiety free and very tired and wow that song is still playing. No that can't be right and sure enough I had it set to loop, I don't know how many times I listened to that song before I noticed it. Dopey Me, ahhh. At least I got a laugh out of it, hope you did too!